I have these moments when I think "What in the world am I doing with my life". These moments usually come after a day of cleaning house, wiping bottoms, and rocking crying babies. I get in this mode where a recap all that I've done in my life and all I'm not doing in my life right now. Where's the FBI agent I planned on becoming, or the lawyer, or the college professor. Those goals seemed to have been sucked up by the four children that now reside in my home.
But thank God (serious not taking the lord's name in vain but SERIOUSLY Thank God) for clarity. I've been looking back on old pictures of the kids for a project my moms working on and I think to myself where has all the time gone. The thought that soon follows is "what if I would have stuck to those goals and missed the precious time I've had with my children". My babies are quickly ebbing away from being babies. Parker is now in school, Ella and Jack will soon follow. Asher is even no longer the little preemie I brought home from the hospital. My baby who was so tiny at birth now is in 9 to 12 month sizes.
This is not to say that I've given up on all my dreams and I'm not so sure I won't take steps to make at least one of those dreams come true in the near future (no not the FBI agent) but being a mom, a good mom, is also something I not only want, but feel the god-given responsibility to accomplish.
This soap box is mainly for me. I need a blog to revisit when such day come about. The pictures will remind me just how quickly time flies.
6 comments:
Look at those precious babies. That picture of Parker Addy makes me almost want to cry. Please keep in mind that even though you life may have taken a different course than FBI agent, many people are blessed by the path you chose. I love your children so dearly and don't know what life would be like without them in it so thank you for giving me the opportunity to be an aunt to such precious children
Agent Scully has nothing on you! You're such an awesome Mom doing a tremendous job! Kudos to you!
Wow to go Christie. I am sure the FBI Agent could be fun, but I think it would be pretty dangerous at times. Or maybe not. I love being a mom to half of what you have. But I know that the lord has blessed me with 2 great ones. Yes it can be alot of work at times but I love doing and being with them. 3
Oh how I love the women in my life!!
Amen. Your babies are beautiful. Who could resist wanting to be with those babies 24/7?
Glad we've been in extra close contact the last few days and that you're feeling better. Great blog of appreciation for your eternal family.
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